Watching & Waiting

So, I have been so perplexed with trying to figure out my symbols that I posted my experiences on an astral projection forum. This is what one of the people had to say:

Some of the things you mention do indeed sound very symbolic, especially the part with the new set of clothes. I am not that good at symbolic interpitations, and would not want to detail too much in relations to symbols of others experiences. But if it will be of any help, I guess a couple of things might not be harm in being said.

I assume the yellow split clothing was nicer than what you were wearing at that time? This "could" then relate to an improvement of some kind, an internal improvement for the better, perhaps your energies are improving a bit, or some other form of improvement. The clothes are something you wear, to change clothes for something better is wear and be in something nicer.

In relation to the bedroom and the video, I am only guessing now, but only thing I can really think of is a message of "I am watching". In the sense that you have been wanting to meet with the guide for some time, and perhaps start to feel that he is not there and ignoring you, an as such giving a message of "I am here, I am watching".

These are only personal impressions, and it is important you do not take these as truths, but rather perhaps something to go on, to help with your own interpitation. It can also be good to keep in mind, that symbols are often a bit personal, as they can contain deeper aspects that relate to you and your own individual situation, might therefor want to be cautious as to what you share in relations to symbolisms. It might also be good to keep in mind, there is always possibility these things were not symbolic, though they do sound like it.

As for all the calls to your guide without him/her chosing to show up. This is really a very common thing. It is not unusual for guides and such to chose to refrain from showing up, due to thinking it is not a good time for such a meeting. It could for instance be, that he/she wants you to get more used to and feel more at home in the astral first, getting some basic understandings and experience before thinking a meeting is suitable.

This does not mean they are not aware of you, or not listening however. You might find later that when you make requests like that, someone is always listening, and always aware of it. It is then up to them weither they chose to go along with the request and show up or weither they think it would be more appropriate at that time to refrain from paying you a visit.

Give it time, try calling for a guide to show up again at a later time when it might be more suiting.

Pretty Cool! I must say. I am inching closer to manifesting my angel...inch by inch I crawl.

Yellow seems to be the word out on the street

In the words of Keenu Reeves...Whoa!

I had another astral experience today and it was weird...let me explain. I spent about 2hrs trying to astral project with no luck, except for a really nice nap. When I awoke and was about to get out of bed, I got immediately shoved back into bed and felt like someone was ripping me out of my body...it was like I exploded out. My astral body wasn't taking no for an answer - it was going exploring and I was coming w/ it (like it or not). I even opened my eyes while I was still in bed and could see the leg of my real body laying down, even thou my astral self was sitting up. When I first exploded - I felt like I needed to laugh like a deranged demon (which, I did) and my first thought was something evil was ripping me out of my body. I crawled off my bed, which was really difficult b/c technically my real body was still awake (you aren't supposed to be able to astral while awake - but here I was ass trolling). I started down my hallway when I passed my guest bedroom - I noticed that the bedroom was different and felt that I had to go in there. The guest bedroom was decorated with just a giant bed that filled up almost the whole room (it was big, tall and soft), the pillows were maroon, the bottom sheet blue and the upper sheet yellow. In the corner of the room a tripod was set up with a video camera on it - facing the bed (kinky!). When I entered the room the first thing I noticed was the yellow sheets and then I got a feeling that Azi (guardian angel) did this and I was supposed to meet him/her. I called out "Azi are you there" a few times and then I was back in my physical body.

The End

What do ya'll make of that? It is a bit weird having a video camera facing a bed, nothing decent comes out of that (que the porn music). And what is with the yellow color and the demon laughing and being ripped out. Crazy!

Astral Time

Well...well...well...its about damn time! I finally astral projected again (instead of falling asleep as usual).

I believe this trip into the astral was full of symbols but, what they might mean...I have no clue. Perhaps you will.

It started off with me leaving my body - I was immediately able to open my eyes before I got out of bed, usually I can't open my eyes until I am in the hallway. Hmmmm...progress? I walked down the hallway, into the kitchen and out thru the back door (also interesting to note - everything was very clear and easy , usually I feel bogged down when traveling in the astral). Once on the back porch I didn't know what to do with myself. I asked the universe where my guardian angel was or spirit guide. I didn't get a response but, my cat Mr. Pickles showed up and a Monarch butterfly. Then in the corner of my backyard was a HUGE gnarly Oak tree at the root of the tree was a silk yellow lacey slip. I knew that I was supposed to put it on. I took off my nightie (so, that I could put on the other nightie) and was pleased with myself b/c I was able to take off my clothes in broad daylight and not worry about fat and cellulite! Why? you ask...b/c this is the astral world and you can make your body awesome looking...which I did : ) Anyway, I was posing in front of my back door (it has glass doors) checking out the body I made for myself...when I got pushed back into my body (I did notice that entering my body was more pleasant than usual). I never got to put on my pretty slip.

So, what does all that mean? Is Mr. Pickles my spirit guide? Does the butterfly mean transformation and if so, does that mean that my guardian angel sent that message to me to let me know that it is going thru a transformation before it can visit me? or that I am going thru a transformation? What does the slip mean (since I was changing out of a ugly nightie to a pretty nightie)? Also, my garden was not present in my backyard.

Questions! Questions!

And so it begins!

I'mmmm baccccckkkk! I've been hard at work at putting together my game plan and already I am pissing somebody or something off (more on that later).

This is my game plan so far:
I started out with implementing Psych-K statements (4 in total) in regards to my guardian angel
2x a day (5mins) visualize
Read & meditate on Mike Dooley daily notes
Read & meditate on Neale Donald Walsh daily notes
Act as if it I could see my guardian angel at my side
Try and astral project daily
Be clear that nothing you seek is real

Make sense? Do you think I should add anything else.

Alright, this is the part where I might have pissed something off. I was innocently trying to astral project when, my boby finally started to separate. I was having a harder time than usual...I had my arms out but, my head and body would only come half way out (I was stuck in a half sit up position). When I was finally able to get out of bed some, dark green tentacle/rope like thing grabbed my neck (strangling me) and started to pull me back into bed. WTF? I yelled at it to Release me and it did! Tooners = 1; Green Tentacle thingy = 0. By that time I used up all my concentration and ended back in my body.

What was that thing? Perhaps me meddling in otherworldly things has brought some unwanted attention.

I will end my posting with an excerpt from Neale Donald Walsh's "Happier Than God" book. I thought it was fitting for the situation.

4. Be clear that nothing you see is real

We live in a world of illusion. You will understand your true relationship with everyting around you when you think of yourself as a magician observing his own tricks. Have the fun that a good magician has, but don't forget for a moment that it is all an illusion. More important, don't forget that it is you who are creating the illusion. Endeavor, therefore, not to get lost in it.

What I am saying here is to stay above the fray by noticing that you are creating your experience of all of it. Exterior circumstances may present themselves in a wide variety of ways, but the way that you respond and react to them is entirely under your control . The moment that you choose your response, and do so freely and in full awareness, is the moment that you recreate yourself anew. This is the power moment. This is the Time of Magic. This is the Intentioned Instant, in which what you choose to become reveals itself in your experienced reality. This is when you decide about yourself, and you see yourself being what you have decided to be, sequentaneously.