Watching & Waiting

So, I have been so perplexed with trying to figure out my symbols that I posted my experiences on an astral projection forum. This is what one of the people had to say:

Some of the things you mention do indeed sound very symbolic, especially the part with the new set of clothes. I am not that good at symbolic interpitations, and would not want to detail too much in relations to symbols of others experiences. But if it will be of any help, I guess a couple of things might not be harm in being said.

I assume the yellow split clothing was nicer than what you were wearing at that time? This "could" then relate to an improvement of some kind, an internal improvement for the better, perhaps your energies are improving a bit, or some other form of improvement. The clothes are something you wear, to change clothes for something better is wear and be in something nicer.

In relation to the bedroom and the video, I am only guessing now, but only thing I can really think of is a message of "I am watching". In the sense that you have been wanting to meet with the guide for some time, and perhaps start to feel that he is not there and ignoring you, an as such giving a message of "I am here, I am watching".

These are only personal impressions, and it is important you do not take these as truths, but rather perhaps something to go on, to help with your own interpitation. It can also be good to keep in mind, that symbols are often a bit personal, as they can contain deeper aspects that relate to you and your own individual situation, might therefor want to be cautious as to what you share in relations to symbolisms. It might also be good to keep in mind, there is always possibility these things were not symbolic, though they do sound like it.

As for all the calls to your guide without him/her chosing to show up. This is really a very common thing. It is not unusual for guides and such to chose to refrain from showing up, due to thinking it is not a good time for such a meeting. It could for instance be, that he/she wants you to get more used to and feel more at home in the astral first, getting some basic understandings and experience before thinking a meeting is suitable.

This does not mean they are not aware of you, or not listening however. You might find later that when you make requests like that, someone is always listening, and always aware of it. It is then up to them weither they chose to go along with the request and show up or weither they think it would be more appropriate at that time to refrain from paying you a visit.

Give it time, try calling for a guide to show up again at a later time when it might be more suiting.

Pretty Cool! I must say. I am inching closer to manifesting my angel...inch by inch I crawl.

Doom & Gloom

Today I am filled with Doom and Gloom...I'm starting to think there is no guardian angels out there and Laws of Attraction sucks monkey balls. Nothing has happened!

I received this is in email the other day (from Mike Dooley):
The baby steps in the beginning of a journey, Marta, always seem inadequate compared to the brilliance of the dream that inspired them. This is natural. If the dream wasn't so far "out there" and dazzling, it wouldn't be worth dreaming! Just don't be led to think that the physical ground you cover with your baby steps is all that they accomplish. Because for every mortal step you take, another cog in a giant wheel behind the curtains of time and space advances, and with it, 10,000 new possibilities.

Better than Star Trek,
The Universe

I thought that was a good sign but, I still feel doomy and gloomy!

This is how I wish my blog went today:

Hey Folks! I did it! I conjured up my angel of awesome! I was innocently sleeping and dreaming of Irish Lords and Selkies when, I was gently tapped on my shoulder. I torn off my fetching sleeping mask to see who was in my bedroom when, I saw leaning casually against my dresser my angel of awesome! He looked at me and said, " Good morning, my sleeping beauty, you wanted to talk to me". Then he said, " My name is Azi and I am at your service" and did a little bow.

That is how it would have all begin and my life would have been changed forever. But, NOOOOOO...instead, nothing happened and I am feeling slumpy.

I'm coming for you angels!

Well...seeing that I only have one follower right now, I decided to do the smart thing and pick my own first quest into the unknown...ohhh scary! Picking the first quest is a big deal, I mean I have to be committed to this quest for the next month or two. Patience and commitment are not my virtues. Hmmm...what shall it be?

How about guardian angels?! Everybody loves angels (well, maybe not demons)...right? How about if I try to attract my guardian angel so, that I can see, touch, and hear them. Here's the catch...I don't want to have to go meditate and communicate thru whatever I hear in my head or write down (everybody does that). I want my angel to come to me in the flesh so, that I can see it with my own two eyes, hear it with my own two ears, and touch it with my own two hands. An impossible task? Perhaps so but, if the Laws of Attraction is what its cracked up to be than some pretty nifty things could happen. It doesn't hurt to try.

Who knows I might have a naughty little angel who enjoys smacking people on their bums! Or we might turn into a crime fighting duo!

Now, I must ponder how to proceed with my attracting...any ideas? What principles should I start with, I think I will start with implementing Psych-K statements first (http://www.psych-k.com/).

I will work on my game plan and post it tomorrow.

Wish me luck,
Tooners